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Wednesday, November 11, 2009

One More Day...

I saw this video at youtube and felt sad, because this reminds me and my husband when we lost our first baby on stillborn. The lyrics of this song is what exactly we felt when we were grieving for our lost. "I remember thinking, "this is not real/true, this can't be happening, this isn't happening. I remember both of us crying out, I remember Matt crying out, I remember him holding me, and both of us sobbing." On that moment our bereaved life changes in the instant." I still cry every time I think of her... and blames myself for I think that it was all my fault why she died. The doctor tried to explain with me that it wasn't my fault or the things I did or didn't do. Can you blame me for feeling that way still? I love her so much! Though I know we would be able to be reunited with her someday, knowing that she not here, makes me feel empty still. She was back to Heavenly Father for a reason of which I don't know...but am sure she is happy that we are doing our "best" here on earth just to be with her someday! I know for sure that "Families Can Be Together Forever.....someday."



"ONE MORE DAY"
sung by: Rocket Club Band

I'll never get to hold you
I'll never hear your sweet voice sing
I'll never get to say 'I told you so'
I'll never read to you, or get to teach you anything
But you'll always be my hope
You'll always be my first light
You're always gonna be Daddy's little girl
You'll always be the strength I need to make it in this world
I only wish for one more day
I'm gonna miss your first day of school
I'll never see you turn that page
I'll never see you in your graduation gown
And I'm never gonna see you coming of age
But you'll always be my hope
You'll always be my first light
You're always gonna be Mommy's little girl
You'll always be the strength I need to make it in this world
I only wish for one more day
Sweet angel of mercy
Coming down to comfort me
Faith, sit right here beside me
I never want you to go away
I'm always gonna wonder how you'd look
Always gonna wish I took your place up there
You'll always be our hope
You'll always be our first light
You're always gonna be our little girl
You'll always be the strength we need to make it in this world
We only wish for one more day
We only wish for one more day."

2 comments:

  1. I can't help but to cry,Ate Ces...Maybe one day, I'll try to show up my true feelings through writings but everytime my fingers starts tipping up the keyboard, napapa iyak talaga ako...I'm not ready yet, maybe someday...

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  2. it is okay, Clang; just take your time; ganyan din ako, di ako nakikipag usap, kasi every time na try ko, naiiyak lang ako. someday, when you are ready, you will...just take care and also our hubby is also grieving, be there for each other, okay...of course I am sure you will. ingat! you guys are still on my prayers.

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