My mind has been busy lately thinking about my life here in United States. Frankly speaking, I was very happy for the past seven years living here with my own little family (of three). With my very supportive, responsible, hardworking, caring, loving and thoughtful husband, I can never ask for more. The birth of our second child, Jacob has made our life more meaningful and eventful. We love him so much and he is our pride and joy! He is now seven year old, turning eight this July. I am still happy when I think about how God has blessed me with such a wonderful family (of my own). But lately, I feel very unhappy and incomplete. Something is missing and I couldn't figure out what it is that would make me the happiest person alive. I realized now, that I am just missing my family overseas. I am missing my relatives, friends, and the country where I was born and raised. Believe it or not, but I still feel homesick, longing to spend my life in the Philippines. Yes, I have all the things that I need, except my parents, siblings and their families and the country and its culture. I am active at church, magnifying my callings as a teacher in Sunday school, trying to live the gospel, but no real friends in there. I don't feel like belong there anymore. But I have no choice, but be active and keep God's commandments. Then today, I was reminded that I don't need many friends to be happy. The quote below made me realized that I have few friends that I can call "real friends". I love them and they make me happy. They don't belong to the church I go to, but they are my real friends, who appreciate me for who I am; and I am so grateful for that.
"Surround yourself with people who know your worth. You don't need too many people to be happy, just few real ones who appreciate you for exactly who you are." ~Unknown~
I know this is the way how God is telling me that I am of worth. I am important to Him and His plan. Now, the thought of not going to church anymore diminished. I realized that it is Satan who is there trying to discourage me to keep doing what I am doing. I am so glad with the Holy Ghost who always help me make right choices....thus guiding me through good and bad times of my life.