Just before hubby left for work this afternoon, I asked him how he sees me as a daughter. Honestly, I was kind of shy to ask this question, but I have to do it. I took a deep breath first then pop up the question, lol! His first word: was your are an "awesome" daughter! I like his answer, but not really happy about it. Why? Because I wanted a more detailed answer :-). When he saw that I wasn't that satisfied, he replied in detailed.
He said that he was touched by how forgiving I am. He think that he can't imagine any person can forgive parents who gave him/her away after birth to grandparents. I didn't know my story as baby till I turned 8 year old. But even then, I didn't feel any anger or hatred against my parents. What happened a long time ago is gone and I understood that maybe my mother experienced a baby blue or postpartum depression.
Anyway, hubby said that I love my parents so much despite of that phase in my life. I still want to help them, support them, think of them and be with them. I don't know why, but that is what I feel. Whatever happened, I have already forgiven then...they are my family and I wouldn't be where I am today if it is not for them.